...well, the end of my exams anyway. No, that's not strictly true: the end of my exams brings with it the end of a great many other things. It's the official-official end of my high school career. Let's be real, for all the tears I shed, graduation was mostly for frills and to satiate us students. … Continue reading The end is nigh!
It's hard for me to take good news at face value. I'm pretty sure I can't be the only person to think this way - I lower my expectations about everything so much that I will refuse to believe that something amazing has happened to me until I have solid, tangible proof of it. Of … Continue reading Phases of acceptance
I've been posting a lot of personal posts lately, I know. Nothing too hard hitting, nothing too jarring, but I guess that's the nature of the phase of life I'm in. I'm restless, I can see the end just around the corner, and I want time to pass even faster than it is already. Of … Continue reading 1/9
Fun fact about myself - I only just recently acquired the skill of self-confidence. It's a feeling of freedom juxtaposed with a little bit of guilt, because you feel like you're overstepping the boundary between healthy self-affirmation and sheer, unadulterated vanity, and lemme tell you: in the grand racecourse of my self-esteem that is an unfairly … Continue reading Short note: I’m getting there
My school's astronomy club is having an art exhibition on the 17th of January, with all the paintings revolving around the theme of space. I found myself committing to around five paintings myself - not many realize what a big deal it was for me to have committed at all. Since IGCSE art, I've sworn … Continue reading Short note: I’m an artist
I've been trying to figure out how to write this blog post for about...a week now, I suppose. Now that I have a lovely eight days till my next and final exam, I think I should sit down and start typing and hope for the best. My self-esteem's been taking a kick lately. I internalize … Continue reading Don’t internalize negativity!
I was bound to get one or more rejection letters. I think what sucks most is that the first proper response I got was a rejection letter because, for a mind as superstitious as mine, that means subsequent bad news-But just now, out of absolutely nowhere, a fun. song began playing on my computer. Trust … Continue reading Starting this off with a deep breath
Let's be honest, I'm not the best person to handle stress. I need my sleep, I need to relax, and I need to have breathing space. In contrast, I am a ridiculous overachiever, I'm way too ambitious and passionate, so my need for relaxation is pretty much ignored. I also take things to heart.So when I'm … Continue reading Ironing out the kinks
Sometimes you feel like nothing can stop you; as if you're riding a cloud, your heart pounding with exhilliration, with excitement, with sheer, unadulterated happiness. You're proud of every step you take. Everything you do is a reminder of what you can accomplish, how lucky you are, how blessed your existence is. Life is good. … Continue reading Invincible, only for a moment
I truly am. It hits me, every so often, that there isn't much I'd rather be doing instead of what's happening right now. I don't have many regrets. I don't spend ages locking myself in my bedroom and sobbing about what a mess my life's become. I don't have a lot of things I want … Continue reading I’m in a good place in my life